of maids..

1 or 2 day ago, news reported that a 21 year old maid jumped down from 23 story with her charge, a 5-mth old baby boy.. seems that the little boy's grandfather is in the flat as well.. news like this will definitely make ppl question my decision of leaving Ken alone with my helper WITHOUT supervision at home. Even with supervision such case can happen, what more, without? And, yesterday, I received a call from my MIL telling me how worried she is. And, during a gathering on Sat, I was sitting beside 2 SAHMs.

1 of them asked, "Who is taking care of Ken?"
I said, "my maid" *pause* "un-supervised".
*silence* ensued...

I'm very sure they feel awkward. For a pause of 5 sec, I felt I need to add something to break the silence.
I said, "I have a good maid."

And, I quickly change the topic of discussions.

I can feel that I'm labelled. Probably a heartless mom, I supposed. I can't tell people I have no choice. People will think that, "well, you can live within your means. Lower expectation. Do you know that a child's first 6 years is very important?", etc.. But, of course I know all these. I'm doing my best in my own capacity. I try hard. We have 2 sets of parents with no money! Anything happen, I'm very sure we will need to fork up the money for their medical care, etc. So, sad to say, both EM and I have to continue working.

So what do I feel about this incident? I find that it's the boy's karma. It can happen on any being, why this little boy? Because it is his karma.

So, am I to blame everything on karma? I pray hard for Ken to have the good fortune to have good carers. So far, he's really blessed in a way. My previous nanny was very good with Ken. My maid currently I have no complaints. I feel I can only protect his life so much. In the end, it is his life to lead. If it's his karma to have a short life, even if I'm a SAHM, accidents can happen. Life is with its cause and effect. So, I try to do my good deeds. And, I can only offer my prayers. At the end of the day, I know, life has too many choices. I pick one and live it! And, I can only hope that the choice that I've chosen, the path I'm walking will be a good path, a correct path. Peace.