ken is weaned long time ago..

i like to date ken's "development".. like when and when can ken do this.. when and when ken has his teeth, etc.. it's the new mommy syndrom.. but horror of horror, i dunno when he stopped nursing.. when i first found out abt tandem nursing sometime early Feb, 2004 (ken was abt 8mo), i was in awe with the "concept".. so, i read up.. borrowed this book from the NLB (library) -- "Adventures in Tandem Nursing: Breastfeeding During Pregnancy and Beyond by Hilary Flower". The more i find out, the more keen i am to "try out".. so, i planned my pregnancy.. cos, if i got preggie too early, ken may weaned.. so, i waited and waited..

i guess i must be fertile.. some ppl hv to reduce nursing for their period to return.. mine returned when ken was 5-6mo!! *HATE*.. anyway, i start charting and counting.. i hv this spreadsheet that i can enter when i think the EDD for #2, and it will tell me how old ken will be then and when to hv some "action" in bed.. so much so for my calculations!! Despite being careful to plan, ken obviously hv other opinion!

I had a good start in bfg Ken while pregnant w Wenn.. it was smooth.. i dun hv any sore nipples or any antsy feelings that some women will hv while bfg when pregnant.. Ken will still nurse a4d 30-40min twice a day.. i was sooo confident.. i even b'f ken while hving some bleeding/spotting during week8-10.. even b'f him while puking my way in the 1st trimester.. then, it was beautiful.. ken was a good nurser.. he just gong gong lie down there suckle and suckle.. no fuss no kickings.. then still going strong on my 2nd trimester.. that's when i'm totally dry.. can feel a bit sore.. but manageable.. perhaps the early weeks of sore and cracked nipples hv toughen my nipples.. must hv grown thicker skin?!.. anyway.. it was great and wonderful.. no more puking and ken still going strong..

then towards end of my 2nd trimester, ken began to skip some nursing sessions.. one day no nursing at all, next day nursed twice AM/PM.. i was still hopeful.. also, the m4m board i frequent hv a few nursing preggie mommies.. so, we all excited/anxious over tandem nursing.. so, there was some discussions.. i can't remember the exact date, so, i went to search the board.. (it has moved to a new home, i tot perhaps before it really go down, i better search my old postings).. and i found what i had posted

Posted: Tue May 03, 2005 10:09 pm
rejected 1 week, shd i still
continue to offer my breasts to ken?? it is like a battle every nite.. shd i still continue to offer and face the rejections??

previously he reject, he will still end up taking a few suckles.. now almost 1 week alreadie with no suckles at all!.. dunno to let go or to continue? or shd i offer after i deliver.. but by then he may forget how to suckle liao?

and yet, he's like a big boy now.. seems a "good time" to wean as well?

and til today, Wenn is 4+mo.. i do offer ken some times, but it's always a "no, no, no".. i was disappointed.. but again, nursing one is hard enough let alone TWO.. so, perhaps, it's a blessing in disguise? but ohh.. how i wish i was given the chance.. now, dun tell me to try for a #3 lar.. cos, no way am i going to try a #3 to attempt tandem nursing!.. and Wenn is not a boob lover like ken.. so chances even slimmer!!!!

also, someone asked me then: "how did Ken start rejecting the breasts?" and this was my answer..

simply refuse to nurse.. he will quickly pull down my shirt or, he will use 2 of his hands to close his mouth, or, he start crying with big big tear drops when i look at him and say, "come here, mommy give u nen-nen".. actually, the moment i said, "nen-nen", he starts to run away! Shocked the cutest is when he shakes his head and say, "no, no, no"..

i try not to take it personally.. but it's like, issit so horror to look at my breasts? but at times, i find it amusing.. but mabbe i was pinning my hope on him to help me boost my supply later!!! thus the disappointment..

and mabbe also, i really want to try tandem nursing so much that now i must accept it *may* not be possible.. anyway, *breathing in*.. i will still be hopeful..

actually even if he weans now, it's good cos i dun actually hv to struggle to wean him..

but for my own selfish reason (of wanting to tandem nurse), i'm upset.. and i was so happy initially cos i dun feel any pain when bfg him while preggie.. so thankful that i dun suffer any soreness, but this happen..
anyway, i'm hormonal!! shucks..

ah well.. so, i shall date that ken weans when he was 22.5mo.. nursing him is a bittersweet experience for me.. though painful in the beginning and not to mentioned the sleep-deprived and the crankiness i felt, it was something memorable.. and, just knowing that i've brave thru all that, i feel more confident as a mommy.. many years down the road, i hope my perseverance will remind ken that he can't give up easily too.. when he meet some obstacles on his way, i hope that my experience will help encourage him to persevere and solve his own obstacles too.. mommy never give up, so ken should not give up too.. heh.. am i like pressurizing him alreadie? heh..