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26
Jan · Thu 2006

i am troubled..

(warning: some may be lost abt my vent below.. cos it's a pumping mommy's lament.. so, skip this posting if u'r not into bfg, pumping..)

abt my milk!! what else is new, eh? feel like crying.. ken is refusing to drink my frozen EBM.. my supply is not fanstactic.. i'm only producing in total 2oz more than during ken's time.. now, i'm producing average of 22oz daily, whereas for ken i was producing 20oz.. the problem is ken at this wenn's age now is drinking 7oz x 4 = 28oz.. so i was short of 8oz per day.. my frozen stash then was used to top up the difference for ken.. and with that scary experience of not producing enuf for ken, i'm hoarding my frozen stash for wenn.. but wenn is now only taking 4oz x 5 (20oz) on good days which are rare.. mostly he takes 4oz x 4 (16oz).. so what i pump daily is definitely enuf for him.. thus, my frozen stash is piling up.. and i'm panicking.. thot of letting ken start to drink those frozen stock.. now, sitting in my chest freezer is some 135packs of 4oz frozen EBM.. how to finish?!.. if ken is willing to drink, i have chance.. but now that he's not willing, i hv to mix.. even that, aiyo.. what a headache.. and yet i'm worried that wenn may hv a growth spurt? but it's not happening? and in 2-3w time, i'm planning to start wenn on solids.. sigh.. each child is really different.. but when i think of all those frozen milk that actually i can feed ken all these while, i'm so heartache.. nevertheless, i must coax ken to drink like it or not.. sometimes, i wonder why i even bother to b'f.. all the painstaking effort of pumping, storing, worrying!! and what a worry-wart i am!! but continue pumping i must cos i dunno what's in store in future.. it's just that i can't bear to see my milk thrown when ken refused to drink!.. it's just too heart breaking..

mabbe i shd give frozen EBM to wenn.. but again, i'm torn.. if i hv better quality chilled ones, why wd i want to give him frozen ones?.. :(

(2006-01-26 10:09:13 SGT) [nen-nen (bfg)] Permalink Comments [3]

Comments:

that the dilemma of FTWM. pumping too much (having too much frozen stash) and not pumping enough. {{{hug}}}

Posted by lynntan on January 26, 2006 at 10:16 AM SGT #

biow, *hugs hugs* to you. Don't worry. I can understand how you feel about the stock up stash and Ken's isn't so keen in taking ebm now. I stock up boxes of frozen stash after full month taking up my freezer space and now, I have a box that is sitting inside the freezer that I can't bear to throw. It's long over due, think 5 months liao! Ache and ache. I worry that I start work (have not) I would not have enough ebm for seth to drink. Now that I work on sat, I pump once only in 6 hours. Moreover, my supply kinda dropped drastically too! I did CIO with seth, and he started his solids career, BANG, there goes my supply! hiaz. When I direct feed him now, I can't even feel a stronger let down liao. *sad*. I can even don't wear breast pads cos not as leaky as last time. HIAZ! I have 5 boxes of pigeons sitting in my waredrobe arh!

I am also a worry-wart, but then again, it's just the devil's playing trick on us, why worry? Just let the day worry itself and all will turn out for good. You are blessed with 2 beautiful kids (ken and wenn), so definitely all their needs will be met and as they grow healthily and intelligently, everything that you worry about, is uncalled for when you recall back.

Shalom,
Marr

Posted by emoh on January 26, 2006 at 03:38 PM SGT #

I think it doesn't hurt to give him 1 bottle of frozen ebm a day. Or perhaps every other day. At least ur stock is being rotated. Hmm... I am a greedy person, nothing is too much. The more the merrier, even if it means using it as milk bath for my hands. Haha!

Posted by Marie on January 27, 2006 at 02:25 PM SGT #

26 Jan · Thu 2006

i am troubled..

26
Jan · Thu 2006